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Thursday, April 30, 2009

Fight or Flight?

How many risk takers do you know? People may jump out of planes and bungee jump but when it comes to the heart, it's different...
-Me

I said this to my cousin a couple of weeks ago. Love to me is the biggest risk anyone can take. Giving yourself completely to someone without any inhibitions is something I have never been able to do. I keep a tight reign on my heart. It's difficult for me to let people in. Even in my 9 year relationship I held back. I kept waiting for the day when things would begin to fall apart. Instead of enjoying what I had, I worried about when it was going to end. 

I'm not sure what scares me more about being in a relationship: falling in love and being hurt or falling in love and living happily ever after. I love being single. There is no risk of heartbreak for either person. I never have to take anyone into consideration when making decisions (whether it's what to eat for dinner or something life changing as moving away to get my Masters). I love the independence and the drama free existence. Maybe one day I'll be ready to settle down but for now being single means being free. I want to spread my wings and fly...wherever the wind takes me.

1 comment:

  1. Great quote!! I love it :) and very thoughtful post. Your right it is very hard to let your guard down. And it's nice to be able to spread your wings :)

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